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PROFILE ♥
Ashley ♥
100593 , Single ; Teach me how to laugh . don't tell me who i am because unless i write all
my thoughts down on a piece of paper & hand it
to you, you don't even know half of it.
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See you then! Bye ;D and that blog had no tagboard or whatever. Please tag me at my comments at every corner of the written post ;D
Thursday, August 13, 2009 ♥ 12:27 AM
why.. even after break you are still causing me so much pain.
sorry everyone for what i've done. now thinking back, i really did many childish stuffs. saying other people is childish instead of myself.. do i really feel better? i duno.
just now me and him sort of argued. he kind of woke me up from my dreamland. i suddenly feel so disgusted with myself. he say "we are teenagers not primary kids." yea, thats true cause i really is behaving like primary sch kids. if only.. im still a primary sch kids. i can say stuff like "i dunwan to fwen you." cause even if you really said it without using your brain, no one is going to blame you.
no face to play maple now ._. .. especially when everyone corners you and you duno what to do, so i went off. my 1st reaction after was, hold my head and cried. then joey aiai suddenly called me.. obviously at the wrong time. use half of my brain cells thinking shld ans or not.. anw i did. and manage to cover up my shaking voice cos she didnt seems to find out ;D my skills are getting better. hoho.
felt like deleting my whole buddy list.. active is active lah.. but whats the point. stared at my whole bl list just now, thinking who to turn to. TOTALLY NO ONE. empty empty de feeling evaloped me.. i dun believe in friendship and true love doesnt mean i didnt know it exist. im just saying it wont fall on me cos im always xia suey!
those prank call people called me like 9 times when i was kooning my nap? lucky i know how to use the function call "SILENT MODE". although i know their words are just craps as it is so clear that they are thinking of craps to crap out. but somehow.. im realise that im still affected by it ._. especially when i was emoing, their words all float into my brain like water!
HEADACHE LAH. stop thinking you stupid girl! must stay strong ;D at least for now. 觉得自己真的好失败哦！ tagboard deleted - ;D if no one is going to tag after they read/ no one is reading at all?!?! , i will rather lie to myself that they read and didnt tag cos there's no tagboard! haha (:
Wednesday, August 12, 2009 ♥ 2:57 PM
post deleted (: it just destroy the beautification of my blog. sorry for the unglam-ness (:
my msn officially crashed. then, a mapler ask me change the time on my com then it works again ;D i think everyone's got prob cos my contacts had dangerously less online.
went to lot1 with ruth ytd! study and.. play arcade! i totally forgot that i left $4 la! so.. she pay for me norhs ;D recently, met so many ex-friends! haha! that day at club met dao gary, then ytd meet dao jialong. so happy :x
the tests today was soooo easy! D: easier then i expect it to be. hahaha! feeel so happy! i cant wait for nxt weekend! 4 days holiday again~ i felt like i just wasted 3 mths of my life away ever since after june hols, totally dream through with many pontens, max-ed the quota for absents. SIAN. i will go for mc's then :X
and my allowance is coming soon! i can pre-seen that im going to spend it away in no time. BUT, still im getting some money! ;D
yesterday night was total mind crash for me. argued with shawn as he made me dam angry for duno what. i totally went crazy lah! i held my head and shake it hard so that i could chill ._. but it didnt! now thinking back, i think i did a very job at handling things ytd.. if not cheyenne wont go.. i really wanted to treasure her as a maple friend. but.. i guess friends really comes and go too -.- WHYTF do i even bother. maple.. just showed me how ppl really are. good and bad, yes and no! complicated lah!
but then i felt bad when he lost cheyenne as a friend just because of my things as well ._. i admit i didnt mind my own business ytd. suan le! ytd was really really stress, even in the morning when i slightly think of it make me headache! so i did myself a flavour by slping the whole day in sch ^^ sort of settle-ed with shawn after school. *feel glad*. and for some reasons, i tink derrick just gave my number to some fkers ._. and i had to spend half an hr of my life listening them making fun of me, cos i dunno what to say ._. i mean i dunwan get into trouble or wad. so just orhorh lor D:
going to koon! byes :D
p.s. im neither a les nor a smoker, im just taking photo! lols!
Tuesday, August 11, 2009 ♥ 5:14 PM
my 1st reaction when i saw his blog was, "W-T-F?!" and after reading it, I FEEL SO GLAD that i did the ever first right choice in my life. which is ditching him, totally no more guiltiness. (:
you say i fall in love with a guy not knowing him for more then 2 weeks, isnt you the same too? lols? i know you are still reading my blog, and im not going to CONSIDER your feelings anymore, so i will just make it an end here.
like seriously, you ask urself, did you ever treasure me at all for the pass 1 yr? i asked you to change so many times, I GAVE YOU 1 YEAR OF CHANCESSSS, did you cherish a single one of them? why must you wait until i break with you alr then you determine that you'll change? is it because if i nvr decide to make that decision, then you wont change forever? I didnt ask for more did i? sending gf home is really the basic of what a bf shld do, you? dun say everytime we go out. we std 1 yr you send me home how many times siol?
the new "spare tyre" that you called, did give me more determination to break with you, blame it on yourself that YOU didnt have the ability to make me stay. last time when we stead i ask you write blog you die die also dun write, now break already? "i will continue to blog, nobody is going to stop me" . lols?! dun make me laugh. somemore write until so chim, you wan lie to who sia? telling me that you didnt know how to write blog.
you know, you have absolutely NOTHING except your so call "tx", yea i admit you ARE tx, but so? tx dun own everything okay. seriously, reflect what you did, then go look at yourself at the mirror, nxt is go to ur wallet and see got how much left. i really really CANNOT think of a single thing of WHY the fking hell i shld continue with you. and my so call "spare tyre" is much better quality then you. i will rather have a happy and contented relationship, then a long and painful one. he might not be as tx as you, but he know how to make me happy. that is what i learn in this pathetic 2 weeks.
and and your that "begging ppl to lend you money", i just asked you to lend, i didnt beg you to lend. MIND YOUR WORDS. anw, that day at orchard, the moment you take back my money, i feel SO disgusted. its like, if you really plan to break with me then you take back i okok, but the fact is that time you STILL wan me and you STILL take back, then i tink you sux. AND STOP SAYING THOSE STUPID "ADVICES", not like your results FLY. omg.
LAST THING IM GOING TO SAY. FYI, MY PARENTS ARE NOT "STILL" TGT. they dun even talk to eachother lah! they just haven divoice cause of responsibility of having ME THIS EXTRA KIA. i think they showed me quite an example of how there are NO FOREVER LOVE. and i make myself opened my eyes to the REALITY by trying it out myself. talk about this kind of things to YOU this kind of noobie is totally waste my time.
if you are going to write all those pathetic things on your blog EVERYDAY, and want to make ppl pity you and consol you just because you SEEMS pathetic. then go ahead. i will gift you one word. C-H-I-L-D-I-S-H! i might be pathetic, but so are you.
