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PROFILE ♥
Ashley ♥
100593 , Single ; Teach me how to laugh . don't tell me who i am because unless i write all
my thoughts down on a piece of paper & hand it
to you, you don't even know half of it.
please dun envy me =='' cos i really hate my own behavior and attitude. since you are so honest wif me, i shld be honest wif u too.. (:
actually im a horrible person, i nvr really had a true friend. i mean "true" friend as in that kind of be there when you need me that kind of thing, not just play around. look at weili and yijing, ppl who are once so close to me are so distance now, i duno is because my prob or things are just like that, to me, friendship is so shallow, nobody last forever, like my best friends in primary sch, now they didnt even wave to me when they walk past me, not even a smile. is this call best friends? i know i had been telling you that i will take initial and wave to them and all, but still, at first i will do that, then when time past, i wont. so i am actually not that "open-mind" and direct as you think, i tend to hide quite alot of things, but things like "why u nvr wait for me just nw" i feel it is okay to be direct thats why i say it out.. sometimes i am really jealous and envy your friends also, you treat them so closely and kind and nice, i nvr even had a friend that would take 154 with me all the way home and then go home alone. even my bf wont do that :x
yea, so im really touch.. and also the post you write for me. nobody had ever use such tone to write abt me in a post, i think u must have take alot of time to think before you will post such things (:, i almost cried when i read your post! T.T ok i am crying.
i am sorry a throw a tanturm at you, im not really angry at you... im angry at myself. im sorry.. ytd i was very sad. i felt that nobody put me in their 1st place, i am already just their 2nd, 3rd.. when i need someone, nobody is there for me, i want someone to accompany me and comfort me. someone to hear me out.. someone that i can nag to and then comfort me.. thats all. i am very sad.. i dun like this world and myself. i dunwan to think liddat, but ppl just show me times to times how much they dont care. i thought i get use to this already.. but ytd was an exception.. and i really jealous of your best friend (:
really really sorry for being so harsh, i didnt want to hurt you nor anyone else. thank you for treasuring me too (:
i want to live in a dystopia or utopia society. the world now is like in the middle of no where. in a dystopia society, you can lie to yourself that you are happy. in a utopia society, you ARE happy. whereas, in the middle of nothing, you are nothing. you cant lie cos you are seeing reality. AND ppl's life is so not happy. i want to change, to the ideal person that everyone like. but in my eyes i see dreamland. -.-
ytd i ask my bf to stop playing computer and chat wif me in msn, when he refuse, i was sad. last time, i believe love can change people then i rmb my uncle say that changing a person is impossible, now i proven it myself. when they dont change to your likings, it leave you no choice but accept right? at least now im learning how to accept.
