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PROFILE ♥
Ashley ♥
100593 , Single ; Teach me how to laugh . don't tell me who i am because unless i write all
my thoughts down on a piece of paper & hand it
to you, you don't even know half of it.
it was my birthday 12 mins ago. but why am i still not in the mood of happiness somehow? the first person who congrats me was cynthia, then weili. then no more.
pathetic isnt it? sit here blogging and sobbing. i didn't cry, just that tears roll down from my eye. my frens wish all my dreams will come true and alot of presents. is it true? i stare at the msg for awhile thinking what to reply.. cos i know it is just words with emptiness, no meaning at all. my dreams will nvr come true and no ppl with any presents is going to stand infront me and say this is for you.. so i reply-ed just a 'thankyou'. just some sacartism ofcourse.
i started off chasing ppl, my 'friends' for my birthday present. then.. i gave up. so what if i had the presents? birthday present is a blessing for someone. chasing is not a blessing, i feel better buying it for myself.
as for my bf.. i dunno whr he is, i expected him so much from him. but then again, did i expect too much? i shldn't expect anything right? disappointed. maybe he just fall asleep or smth.. oh well.
watched a taiwan love show just nw, so romantic. love nid courage and trust to bear fruit. while watching, tears roll down my face again. jealousy and admiration. i can do nothing but being jealous. jealous abt the male char doing so much for his love, jealous that they can have such great love and memories. jealous that he have the courage to rebell against the whole world even himself to trust his girl. jealous because this kind of thing only happened in TV dramas. this world, is thr such love that allows me to own?
like i said, even if the rest of the world doesn't care, i will celebrate my own birthday (: 为什么我总是一个人呢?
