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PROFILE ♥
Ashley ♥
100593 , Single ; Teach me how to laugh . don't tell me who i am because unless i write all
my thoughts down on a piece of paper & hand it
to you, you don't even know half of it.
my blog is dead. congratulations (: can you believe it? next week is common test and im still slacking away.. anw, happy birthday to singapore and gekluo les partner (:
so.. this afternoon i went meet her, to pass her birthday present and stuff, then pei her to her house to have "party" . okay, im surprise at how people have their birthday. fine, not surprise, rather envy. cos i dont ever had a birthday like that, nor will i have one. she had so so many friends coming to her house for party and giving her birthday wishes, family eating lunch tgt.. JEALOUS NAH >< thinking back, my birthday is just..... another day ._. *neglected as always* so i emo and played maplestory at her house. sit like 2 hrs+ and headed home.
before going to club later, went back to my nest for a rest. actually dun feel like going.. but im going anyway. (: the whole morning and afternoon was just having this fainting feelings, les spent a portion of her time asking if im okay, nt like i would tell her im not okay. LOL.
and, this is another emo post. which post of mine had no emo contents? (x so.. les told me many things while im with her, especially when she tell me he's a flirt and ask me dun get moved when ppl are just sightly btr to you then usual ._. this totally hit my head with a "X". make me sian dao.. then she added, "but he had gf then wont flirt". so, i feel fine again. LOL. feel so lame.
zen started his cycle again like last year. call me to chat. finefine, i shall just spend my time to listen to his crap. nt all was crap, some did get into my head though. he ask me to face the reality and wake up, so i did wake up abit. just abit :x
cant help but smile at les when she was chatting with me, she experienced so much more, got hurt so much more then me, got played by guys so many times. and then she can still be strong and stand up. then why cant i? ._. is it because she had the support from others? or is it because im not strong enuff?
feel so confuzed, dun even know we are what kind of relationships now. he didnt ask, not like i want him to cuz i will just reply a "duno" . lols :x its my pattern, but also the truth. i duno if i wan to accept anyone again, duno if i can trust or love again.
Just now at train, scrolled through my 3k msges, and then press the "delete" button. i could delete our memories, just like that. (: 没有人是一座孤岛，可是为什么我总是让错的人进入？
